Time is a commodity that I have not been able to invest in lately. It may sound strange but I don’t remember being this busy with my first child. Of course, with my first I hadn’t been nearly as successful at breastfeeding and pumping (I do believe diet also has been playing a role). My husband’s last day of work is this Friday–his contract is up and I know I am stressed out about him getting a new job. I don’t make enough to support us.
So stressors aside, I haven’t been able to really meet the guidelines I set for myself. I am not able monitor my blood sugars after every meal or record every meal–I usually eat one big meal a day at lunch then snack during the afternoon and evening. Lunch is my first meal of the day even though I usually wake up at about 7AM–it isn’t good for me to be running around without eating or drinking anything for hours. I am usually up at night until 1-2AM. I haven’t been able to find time or get the help I need to prepare meals or food in advanced. Using the dehydrator to dry out some healthy snacks worked out great until I decided to cut my finger on the mandolin slicer–I am afraid of using it now.
So my life–my days, rather– have been spiraling down a drain and my weight is up to show for it. I am disappointed and angry and I don’t know what to do. I can’t give up, but I need a plan–a plan flexible enough to work in this no-time schedule I have. I don’t know what that plan is yet. I know that how I feel right now is not good and that it is due to a combination of things including stress, diet, and sleep. I am exhausted all the time. I am unmotivated. I crave carbohydrates and other sugary foods. And I am gaining weight. 😦 So things need to change because I can’t be doing this when I go back to work. I have two weeks to figure this out (I return to work in two weeks).
Because I am not busy enough, I am trying coconut oil for all sorts of things. I will be trying it out as a sunscreen this week–if it works I will be replacing my son’s sunscreen at daycare and have a spray bottle for home-use. I want to try to make my own deodorant with coconut oil and baking soda. And since I am happy with coconut oil as a moisturizer, I want to put it into a bottle instead of using storage containers. I have also been using coconut oil instead of lanolin.
So once things settle down a bit, I will likely be posting more too! To be honest, I posted from work a lot–during my lunch or breaks. In the meantime, you have to deal with somewhat random, disjointed, and possibly grammatically erroneous posts.
The most important thing is that I don’t give up with my weight loss goals.